not allowed...

to go out this week.
instead supposed to spend time with family.
who is on the couch watching a movie.
that they started an hour before i got home.

how is this helping anything??


recently my dad bought a new camper, and my mom said it was bc he realized that i'll be gone in less than two years...which made me realize that i'll be gone in two years.

that may be what's stressing me out so much, you know, the whole college thing. and the fact that the PSAT is in one and a half weeks. and i am trying to move up twenty spots in my class rank. and my counselor wants to meet about college and post-graduation plans. and i am trying to do 2 year-round electives, two core classes, a couple graduation requirements, lead a ministry, lead a small group, be in a bible study, have a social life outside of church, work at my job, help at cross country meets, be an active member of NHS, be an active member of Mu Alpha Theta (math honor society), be active in Habitat for Humanity, get service hours, re-read the hary potter series before PSAT (they have a lot of the vocabulary), and keep up with school work. *breath*

so that's whats goin on. a lot.... it's manageable but i am horrible with prioritizing my time. please pray that i can set the time aside for my relationship God, and then plan everything else around that. thanks!!


that is all.
shelby

well...

I should be studying for my AP World History exam.
I should be cleaning my room.
I really should be cleaning my room.
I should be mailing out support letters for Mexico.
I should be reading my Bible.
I should be reading any book.
I should be practicing my new Spanish vocabulary words.
I should be making Spanish flash cards.
I should be making World History flash cards.
I should be cleaning out my backpack.
I should be sorting my laundry.
I should be dusting my dresser.
I should be making my bed.
I should be cleaning the bathroom.
I should be eating dinner.
I should be getting my stuff out of the office.
I should be preparing for my interview tomorrow.
I should be clearing out the clothes that I don't wear anymore.
I should be coming up with nicknames for newspaper people.
I should be coming up with designs for my art project.
I should be designing a tshirt for my Mexico team.
I should be emailing my 6th grade small group.
I should be finding practice worksheets for the kids that I tutor.
I should be...

But I'm not.

I'm blogging so that I can get off of stupid double-secret blogger probation.

ugh.

i'm not good at not leading.

i've co-captained a relay for life team the past two years, and i absolutely loved it!! this year, one of the guys on the team really wanted to be a captain, so my co-captain and i decided that we'd step aside and let him take over the team. we are both really busy people, so it was only natural that we let him be captain this year. except now we're about a month and a week away from the event and we have no money raised yet [besides $20 that i really appreciate!]. but come on, we need to get back in gear so that we can get this show on the road...fundraising is hard, and it takes time. at both of our team meetings that we've had, i've pretty much taken over so that we can keep moving forward, and i really don't mind...the thing that bothers me is that our captain basically begged me to be captain, and i'm still the one in charge. now some of that is my fault because i'm not good at not leading, so as self-appointed co-captain, i want to make sure that our team is doing its job; raising money for the american cancer society.

leadership is my thing. i'm good at management. i'm bad at remembering things. i'm bad at not leading. which is the point i was trying to make.

to his credit, our captain is REALLY good at getting the ball rolling on things...he's talked to restaurants to get fundraisers set up and stuff that i would have never gotten started. but he is also really good at letting the ball drop. i am good at keeping it rolling and communicating with the team. from here on out, i am proud to be working with our captain as opposed to for our captain. leading is my thing. i'm not good at not doing that.


here's how you can help:
1. we take any donations. all the money raised goes to the american cancer society.
2. on may 6, we are having a fundraiser at chili's. ask me for a flyer that you can take in so that 10% of your meal will go towards our team's goal of $1100.
3. we are supposed to be getting an online site that you can donate to directly. i'll let you guys know when that will be up!

our team really appreciates what you can give, and we thank you for your support!!

if i had run over two little kids on the mountain, here's how i would have done it:

first of all, there are way more kids on village way than on march hare, so i would have run over them probably on my way down for lunch. one of them would probably have been a girl that was about 5 years old i think. she would have been wearing this really cute hat that had sparkles on it, but a white jacket which made her hard to see. the second kid was-i-mean-would-have-been a boy of about 8 or so that was way out of control to begin with, so running into him would have been entirely NOT my fault. i also would have not gotten angry when the ski instructor yelled at me for not paying attention.

anyways, thats how i would have done it if i had.


but i didn't. i promise...

tim and faith

are my favorite. i'm listening to a duet right now, and sometimes songs just make me feel a whole lot better. the next few weeks are going to be interesting, weird, fun, hard, and lots of other stuff. i am waiting in anticipation to find out where in the world my life is going. waiting patiently.

well to today is easter. i finally got to go to the sunrise service for the first time ever!! so fun...and i even 'camped out' in room 203A (i think) in a tent. :) we played sardines, watched monsters inc., watched pride and prejudice, rolled tables, threw rocks, and poured jesus juice.

ski trip was soso much fun. i can't even begin to tell the stories on here...just ask connor about my fall, matt about my priorities, caleb about trying to sleep on a bus, kim brittany and laura about behind-the-scenes jehu, trey pomroy and trey dondrea about story fabrication, nathan about mountain hotties, tori about hot tubbing and sauna-ing, and gish about a diminished chord. that would pretty much sum everything up i think.

well i must get some sleep but yay for having an extra day of spring break off!!!

goings on here on tartan

well that title started out rhmying anyways... 'on' and 'tartON' [but its really tartAN].

watev.

so i've got a bunch of work to work on for AP world so this will be pretty short. i am now back to my original sandwich [like THE original] --pastrami, mozzerella, pickles, olives, lettuce, and tomato, little bit of mayonaise and mustard, and salt and pepper. yum! i am tutoring kids in math and making some dough....because of my crazy schedule and lack of driver's license it would be next-to impossible for anyone to hire me, so this is working out really great!! i love math and i want to be a teacher, so this is pretty much the perfect job for me right now...God works in not-so-mysterious ways after all.

womens' retreat was a blast and i hope to go next year. it was nice to take the weekend off, meet some neat ladies[including Darlene], and get into the Word. when i leave the computer in a few minutes, i am going to work on my bible study homework and my dare for tuesday night discipleship. then its AP world :( oh well...life goes on.

i hope to stay updated on here and get 'deeper' with my thinking ;)

adios muchachos!

the end of a beginning

Here is a list of several things that mark the end of my 'new beginning'. now I am moving on...and will hopefully not smell like smoke. [bible study joke. lol]

1. Harry Potter-- the last of the series came out this summer, so now i must move on. although i still loveLOVElove hp, i will be looking for something else to fill what is now a hole.

2. sophomore year is in FULL swing. new semester, and new classes....new things to worry about and new lessons to be learned. out with the old, and in with the new.

3. my infamous sandwiches. i've been changing them up a little everyday because i am trying to embrace change. enough of eating the same thing every day. it gets boring.

4. AP world history... i am sick of my procrastinating self--i will be working to keep up with homework and study the material....we'll see; time will only tell

5. i have a library book that i need to turn in...i think it was due today :(

6. i am no longer "seeking" a boyfriend. if its God's plan, it'll happen of course...and if not, i'm okay with that. or atleast i'll try to be.

7. this new bible study rocks my socks and flips my flops. i love doing the homework and learning about history. and how we are living in a babylon of our own.

8. tuesday night is getting better.. our girls are GREAT, we've finally got a system down that i think will work, we've got truth or dare journals that are awesome, and now we just need to ask God to help us carry it all out!!

9. wow, its hard to top that last one, but its worth a shot anyway.. i got some yogurt at the store and i've been eating it. yogurt is pretty good for you, and you are supposed to get 3 milks a day.

10. womens retreat. nuff said.

adios muchachos!